SMH Facebook...

It was currently brought to my attention... By the lovely people of Facebook, that those who "talk shit" on their status, leaving out names.... causes drama.. and can be very annoying.. These people "make Facebook like high school"....

So at first I thought.. "Yeah.. I suppose I should stop making status's about how someone has pissed me off" but then it hit me..... "Why should I? What am I doing wrong? "

I originally decided I was going to jump on Facebook and make a status about how much I disagree with this ignorance.. and how much I'm sick of these people saying this..

Well, obviously I decided against it.. all it will do is stir up more of  the "drama"  that no one wants.... so let me say this here and now

To the Ones Who Feel That My Status's Cause Drama and Constant Headaches:

1. I didn't know that what I have to say was that important in your life....but also I didn't know that me VENTING was such a problem.
And what made you some higher being that has the right to say who I might be referring to on Facebook?
Did you even consider that I could be referring to someone outside of Facebook? Or has Facebook consumed your life to the point that you cant see outside of the perimeter?

2. In my opinion... If a fellow Facebook friend of mine decided to rant and rave on their status about how someone did the following:

LIED, BULLSHITTED, BACK STABBED, TALKED SHIT, BEING A BITCH.. ETC ETC......


I wouldn't be concerned about WHO they were talking about... Unless I felt guilty about something I may have done.. or if I was nosey and wanted in on this so called "drama" they are causing due to their status that your reading....

But mainly because I would want to know if it was about me....

Are you feeling guilty about how you treat people, or maybe perhaps the things you may have done behind someones back? That's defiantly a question you need to ask yourself...

3. Now I suppose since, going on there and not leaving names is causing such an issue..  I will just put peoples names on blast from here on out. Will that solve things for everyone? I'm sure that's the more mature and less dramatic thing to do right?

" HEY bitch! Yeah you Susie..why you gotta be such a WHORE? Your fucking my man behind my back!!!!"

Yep... now that I put it that way and see it before my eyes...it seems like a wayyyyy better option.... what was I THINKING BEFORE?????

4. The number one thing said on facebook.. is..."Its just facebook".. so why are we all tripping about what others are doing constantly on it..

Theirs this thing called freedom of speech.. and we all have the right to use it.. If you don't like what someone has to say, then act like an adult and ignore it or approach the person in a adult manner..which brings me to my next point

5. By making a post about how these "people" without naming names.. keep talking shit.. and need to stop.. etc blah blah.. is only feeding the fire.. and is very contradictory.....

I myself have made this post..because I don't enjoy drama.. But I do know that drama is one of those things in life you just cannot avoid. I feel like I have the right to say what I want.. and I feel the need to stand up for myself... And so I did it in the best way I could think of.. I came to MY BLOG where I WRITE MY OPINIONS.. and said what I needed to.. I didn't go to Facebook and cause a "scene" like someone who enjoys the drama would...

So what have we learned here today children?

"Drama Quotes

never take back what you say ;; turn your back &nd walk away!

Drama’s made for movies, not reality!

drama, lies, tears ..teenage years.

sweetie, if your going to be two-faced;
at least make one of them pretty.

love me, hate me, just think, you’re thinking of me!

you talk it. we live it.
you’re jealous. admit it.

it’s not my fault your man wants me..

my name must taste good;
it’s always in someone’s mouth

save the drama for your mama!

if you don’t like me – who the hell cares!

people will always talk about you
might as well give them something to talk about

keep talkin : you’re makin me famous!

i taught your boyfriend that little thing you like

i ♥ my life & apparently you do too!

A little rudeness and disrespect can elevate a meaningless interaction
to a battle of wills and add drama to an otherwise dull day.

If you don’t know me…THEN DON’T JUDGE ME!
Nobody said you had to “LOVE ME”!

I understand girls talk behind my back…
&& the thing is, im real and thats something they lack.

This girl here is one of a kind!

Do I care what you think? — HELL NAW!
Just keep that in mind.

U say U not a hoe…Aiight, no doubt..
Next time ya say that, Be sure to wipe ya mouth.

Tryin’ to jock my shit? — nahh, didn’t think so.
‘Cuz no matter what you copy, you’re still just a silly hoe.

I got all those bitches…SHAKING IN FEAR!
Quick to talk shit…YET SCARED TO COME NEAR!

If you got somthing to say to me…SAY IT STRAIGHT!
*Cuz being all shady is one thing I hate*

U Swear U Know me…’Cuz ya heard my name…
BUT If ya ever really met me…You would know the game…
Drama never ends & haters are all the same…
They smile to your face & spit on your name!

While all ya talk ’bout me…I sit back & THINK….
DAMN, I got myself a fan club!

Bitches throwin shit on my name…That’s a shame…
Is it my fault that i’m the hottest bitch in the game?

Speak well of your enemies – You were the one who made them!

To all you haters – Do what you do.
I sure as hell ain’t gonna waste my time on YOU!

Hating on a certain name
Only gives them the fame.

i drOp shyt.. h0es pOp it.. dem birdiez fOll0w it… gOt my name in yO mOuth? b1tch swallOw it!

People hate me because they envy me…

Waste your time hating me…I don’t give a shit.

Think about it, Where’s your baby daddy- When you’re ready for bed?

no matter how fast you run…you’ll never get away from drama!

Go ahead and talk your shit, But here’s a word of advice.
Click your heels together & sayy “I need a life”.

Before you open your mouth…
Make Sure – You have a mind to back up all the things you say.

I don’t have to talk all that shit a nigga could look at me & see I am a the baddest bitch.

If people say something about you…

Judge you as if they know you…DON’T GET AFFECTED!
JUST THINK: [[ dogs don't bark if they know the person ]]!

bitches taLk Shit cause they don’t knOw me, truth is if a had a d*** , they’d Be the firSt tO blOw me!!

Save the drama for the school play."

Here I sit

WHY? Thats a really good question.... Dont you think? Im always asking myself.... Why? Why do I feel that I cant accomplish something? Even simple small tasks. Why dont I have enough self confidence to just push through? And why do so many others have the ability to just do it... Even if they have a sense of possible failure? Some days I wake up feeling like a million bucks. I can do anything... Achieve everything... And master the art of LIFE. And then it slowly fades back to that little girl who fears the idea of just simply dealing with human interaction. Is that called anxiety? Do I have anxiety? Hmmm...... Well up until now I never considered that.
"Are you constantly tense, worried, or on edge?
Does your anxiety interfere with your work, school, or family
responsibilities?
Are you plagued by fears that you know are irrational, but can’t
shake?
Do you believe that something bad will happen if certain things
aren ’t done a certain way?
Do you avoid everyday situations or activities because they make
you anxious?
Do you experience sudden, unexpected attacks of heart-pounding
panic?
Do you feel like danger and catastrophe are around every corner?"

Id say that i have a few of those.... SHIT! well... I suppose I might then. So my next question is: If I do have some sort of anxiety... is it extreme enough for me to go get some help for it.. or be put on meds. We all feel the same about medication. None of us want to be walking zombies just to get through the day. And I would rather somehow deal with it on my own.. I want to conquer this evil seed called anxiety. But in the meantime nothing in my life is getting done due to it. So how do you really battle anxiety? Not cover it up and pretend its no longer there. But to actually defeat it... Does anyone else feel the same way as me? What if its not anxiety at all. But just a lack of self confidence? hmm.....I just wish I knew.

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I Wish I Had Something Better To Write About

On a daily basis I tend to have a million and one thoughts, ideas.. opinions and so much more just running through my head. And typically I can maintain these thoughts and somehow manage to write them down and form them into a decent blog. Lately, I have not been able to do that. In fact, the posts that I have put up lately have been from my old poetry that I have been working on for over a year now. The poetry that I have stashed away and saved in hopes that I will one day publish it as a book. But I have long forgotten about it since I have started up this blog of mine.


Something that I have discovered about myself within this last month is that the only way I can have a semi clear mind to write is if I can have AT LEAST 4 days a week of loneliness. I'm pretty sure that is normal with any writer. We need silence to think. But not only do I need it to write. I need it for my sanity as well. I haven't had a day to myself in over a month and I feel that its starting to wear me thin and dry. I'm extra moody. Irritable. Hateful. Just downright bitchy.

And all these thoughts i have to write are just scrambled in my head. I get excited when I think that I got a new amazing post in the making and then I sit down and cant think of any way to start it..or finish it. Its frustrating. I suppose the stresses of every day life are not helping me as well. I feel stuck. STUCK...STUCK!!! and I feel hopeless. I think hopelessness is one of the worst feelings. Its a friend to depression.

Im struggling to express any of this right now..there is just too much going on that I want to write about.. And hopefully I will soon find my quiet time..And get back on the writting grind... I hope..

Embryo


I am your embryo
Just a little nothing
You are vital to me
Nourish me
And lead me
To this existence that I’ll end up just leaving
I’m just a diminutive embryo
Waiting to ripen to this world.
I’m just a insignificant embryo
Waiting for your love
To cure
To dispense the impure
Who is me
Trash and ecstasy
Your intestines bind and tie
Around my neck
Your cigarette
Suffocates
And I cry
Piercingly I cry
Famine to survive
I’m just this insignificant embryo
Ill and Cold
I begin to mold
Into who you are
Disastrous waste

Polluted Lust






Contaminated thirst for the abuse
Degraded and used
My ailing addiction I will not refuse.
The way you place your body on top
Grinding your revolting warmth
Clenched hands on my neck
Turn me around
This polluted lust
You demand


I follow your list of commands
My emperor of pure rapture
Regarded as an animal
I’ve been stolen and captured


As the sun rises
We wilt
Passion fades
I function with rage
neglected from your
polluted lust


As dusk creeps
We fall in love again
Liquor bottles sweaty in our palms
A murmur of our sincere dishonesty
Silenced by my innocence
I endeavor to wash away forever
Dismissal
No remorse
Just


Polluted intercourse

SWINE FLU


You lay with swine in bed.
Whispering sugary sweet nothings in her head.


Her ventriloquist.
Nothing without someone to guide her lips.


A fallacious trick,
a travesty,
and Drunken sodomy.


I’ve ingested the syndrome, you mutually fed.
In my stomach it coils and bends.
Makes me sick.
This worm of insecurity sheds.


Starving to be me.
You are nothing without a host,
and I am complete.
This worm of absurdity.
And I am queen .


She feeds off you,
in stages you decay,
pandemonium,
yet you lay.


Crippled by her carnage,
I kill time,
Lingering.


I am the emperor of your imminent end
The swine cooks up her plan
A hag
Her little punching bag


You wish you were me
I have the power
I take the lead
Completely immersed in my supremacy
You reek of jealousy


The itch
Step back
Before I pull the switch
Blade of hate
Make you suffocate


I am chief
Emperor
The boss


You are swine
Hag
Host


And by my side
YOU ARE NOTHING
BUT A LOSS